If you are gonna text me everyday asking me whether i'm free so i could chat with you, dude, you're wrong. I have a life too. I'm not here to entertain you. Plus, please have some respect for me.

That's the end of my rant.

Why and how can you have such a power to control my feelings. Sigh...

I got promoted.

But there are some friends who didn't make it through with me. And it really hurts to see some of us not able to get life through in MI together. Now i know what the teachers mean.

I'm suppose to be getting B's by now. But i'm not. And i'm afraid that i won't do well for A's. I'm totally freaked when i think that imma be taking my A's next year. Am i really ready for this? I ask myself this question a lot of times. But i'm not gonna quit.

The past 2 years, the hard work that i put in. I don't want all that to come to nothing. I must start my revision after my PW. Of course imma take some days off to enjoy. But i must seriously start my revision before 2012 comes.

"Have a dream team alliance." For those who watches Korean variety Dream Team, no. That's not what dream team means.

It actually means having a team of people who have the same mindset as you. Friends that will encourage you when you are down and those who have the same goal as you. The goal that "We are going into a local university bitches!". That kinda goal.

And i must say, I'm an extremely lucky girl because i have my dream team. And i love these girls to death. Without them, i doubt that i'll even survive year 1. But thanks to them, i realize something that i have never realize in secondary school. These friends made me change for the better and i'm really grateful to them.

My study buddies, Zhilin and Yuwen. To me, i think that our friendship is kinda special. I feel that we can be so different at times but we can just blend together. There seems to be this invisible force that binds us together despite our differences. I don't know how to even describe our friendship but it holds a really important place to me. Also, they're the best study buddies i've ever had in my life!

Lydia and Shahirah. The closest Malay girls that i've known in MI. I'm thankful that i have these girls to vent out my frustration to. Sometimes, i can't really fully vent out my frustration in English but with them, i can just say out everything. I can trust them with some of my issues that i can't really describe to other people. They're also my best maths and POA teacher!

And of course, how can i not talk about my happy pill! This girl is really a huge influence to me ever since i step into 10B3. (it will be a lie if i say ever since the day i step into MI, cuz there was orientation and i didn't know her then.) I used to be a girl who is happy with just a passing grade. No. Scratch that. I'm happy as long there's improvement. I don't even need to pass! But after knowing her, a passing grade is not enough. I've become an... over-achiever? I feel like that at times. I don't know if its good. But with such a competitive education system, i think this influence is good.

Frankly speaking, MI has students who are not HIGHLY motivated, sometimes you forget that you are not competing with just fellow MI students for seats in the U. But Jess made me think that every single student in other JCs are not just happy with a passing grade. It has to be an A. That's what you need if you wanna get into a local U. Or the U of your dreams. (Mine is SMU).

Another thing is, I was NEVER a perfectionist. NEVER. I'm not really into the everything-has-to-perfect kinda shit. But after knowing Jess for 2 years, I tend to want things to be perfect. Not that i became a perfectionist or even want to be a perfectionist. But i just want things to at the best form as possible.

I cringe at the moments when i think back to my old times. Boy am i damn childish. Not caring bout shit and just care about things that i like. Now that i think about it, i think it's really wrong to have that mindset. I'm glad that MI had actually changed the way i think.

I know you are reading this Jess! <3! Thanks for everything!

And of course, last but most importantly, my one and only BFF. Nuraini!

Even though we may not be studying in the same school, studying different things and such. I thank her for caring about how i'm doing in school and such. And i'm thankful that we are finding time to spent with each other despite our busy schedule. I really miss her when she went to Seoul. I had no one to text or to meet. She's actually one of my pillar of strength. I know i can run to her when i'm having troubles. Since she knows me the longest, i feel that she knows everything that she needs to know. Not everyone has the luxury of having a BFF and i thank God that He gave me one.

I don't what made me write such a post but since i don't express myself with words, i want my friends to know how much they mean to me. These girls are my dream team alliance.

Ok, i have school tomorrow and morning duty. Sucks ball i tell ya.

And again... I strayed while doing PW.

It's 11.36 and i have school tomorrow (I tend to sleep at 10pm every night). Meeting Zhilin at 7.15am tomorrow cuz we wanna try out the new circle line.

I think i shall sleep now la. Ciao!

P.S. Jess said she wouldn't want to see my picture when i say peace out. So Jess, just for you, what about our picture?

My favorite song!

Ok you can check out her other videos on Youtube. She's like the American version of Tasha aka T aka Yoon Mi Rae. She sings and raps. My idol!!!

Oh and other than her, i still love Chris Brown!